My silly life...

Why is it that I can only find someone to love online? What's so wrong with me that I can't seem to "find" someone in the real world...?

Could it be that I'm too independant? Could it be that I'm intelligent? While I'm not ugly, I'm not society's idea of beauty, either (and it doesn't bother me a bit). Could it be that I'm not afraid of using my mind, forming opinions and standing by them until someone has the arguements that might prove me wrong? I enjoy listening. I'm not the most fashionable person, but I'm not wearing my 80's fashions (even if they are back in style, I disliked them then so why would I suddenly like them again? *lol*). I'm old (44 this year), and unable (well, unwilling due to my age) to have children. While I may be stuck in a nowhere career, at least I have a steady job and am very lucky in that regard. I am also trying to take advantage of the "free" education offered here at work to improve myself and my chances at better empolyment.

Men! Too afraid of an intelligent, honest, independant woman. As I'd hate to bruise their delicate egos, to hell with them. *LOL* Actually, that's not totally true, if a man's ego gets bruised by my personality he's SO not worth being around. I've been considering either e-Harmony or Lifemates...but there is one called "It's Just Lunch" that's been tempting. I think part of the problem is that at my age I should be well established in my career, or should have been married once already (or even twice). They're expecting perfection, and it's just not going to happen. Sorry to bust your bubble, fellas, but if you're not acheiving perfection you're not going to get it from me. Just trying to be realistic here.

I'll let y'all know how my possible adventures go. I'll never quite accept that I'm too old for this shit, but frankly I'm getting tired of it. Being alone, that is. And no, I do not do the "I Hate Valentine's Day" thing either, but only because it sullies the true St. Valentine. It's ugly that everyone figures that they can only prove to someone that they love them only one day out of every year, and do that by purchasing over-priced "stuff". It's almost as bad as Christmas these days.

Oh well, enough of my ranting. So, how positive do I sound now, Isapacey? *LOL*

TTFN :)

You know it's gonna be a bad day when...

Left late for work this morning.

Stepped out the door and it started to rain (thankfully had my umbrella).

Grabbed the wrong bus (but it still got me to where I needed to go).

Stood there on the train platform staring at an ex that got off the train that I was getting on. Bastard didn't say a word or even deign to look right at me. Heart is hurting...

Had to stand on the second train (really hating that stretch between Eglinton station and Davisville station - makes you lose your balance far too often). Tote bags and large knapsacks need to be banned!

Got to work late.

Lots of overnight stuff backed up, and got the morning packages for my boss in the wrong order, as well as missing printouts. However, I was only trained on the basics, so not my fault. Still felt foolish.

Literally whacked myself in the eye, dead centre, with my mascara wand.

Sitting here wearing lipstick that should be a kind of teracotta red - is currently bright fuschia pink.


I had better post some pics on this blog before I try and do some real harm to myself this weekend, right? *lmao* Wow, I'm really hoping I used up all my bad karma points this morning, I'd like to finish the day on a good note if that's possible.

May you all have a terrific weekend! *big smile, waving frantically*

TTFN

EDIT:
Karma ain't through with me yet. Just "overwhelmed" my maxipad...and at the front, too. Thank god I had made a purchase and requested a bag so I could carry it in front of me to hide the blood stain on the front of my jeans!! Shit y'all, I'm now tempted to just go home, have a wee drink, pull the covers over my head and tell the world to go fuck itself. What say you? *lmao*