Monday, 9 February 2015

My silly life...

Why is it that I can only find someone to love online? What's so wrong with me that I can't seem to "find" someone in the real world...?

Could it be that I'm too independant? Could it be that I'm intelligent? While I'm not ugly, I'm not society's idea of beauty, either (and it doesn't bother me a bit). Could it be that I'm not afraid of using my mind, forming opinions and standing by them until someone has the arguements that might prove me wrong? I enjoy listening. I'm not the most fashionable person, but I'm not wearing my 80's fashions (even if they are back in style, I disliked them then so why would I suddenly like them again? *lol*). I'm old (44 this year), and unable (well, unwilling due to my age) to have children. While I may be stuck in a nowhere career, at least I have a steady job and am very lucky in that regard. I am also trying to take advantage of the "free" education offered here at work to improve myself and my chances at better empolyment.

Men! Too afraid of an intelligent, honest, independant woman. As I'd hate to bruise their delicate egos, to hell with them. *LOL* Actually, that's not totally true, if a man's ego gets bruised by my personality he's SO not worth being around. I've been considering either e-Harmony or Lifemates...but there is one called "It's Just Lunch" that's been tempting. I think part of the problem is that at my age I should be well established in my career, or should have been married once already (or even twice). They're expecting perfection, and it's just not going to happen. Sorry to bust your bubble, fellas, but if you're not acheiving perfection you're not going to get it from me. Just trying to be realistic here.

I'll let y'all know how my possible adventures go. I'll never quite accept that I'm too old for this shit, but frankly I'm getting tired of it. Being alone, that is. And no, I do not do the "I Hate Valentine's Day" thing either, but only because it sullies the true St. Valentine. It's ugly that everyone figures that they can only prove to someone that they love them only one day out of every year, and do that by purchasing over-priced "stuff". It's almost as bad as Christmas these days.

Oh well, enough of my ranting. So, how positive do I sound now, Isapacey? *LOL*



  1. So funny I got a shout-out at the very end as I had already planned to write a comment! What you wrote is EXACTLY how I'm feeling! I'm two years older than you as of a few days ago and even though I never really thought about having children of my own (though I love other people's kids) the fact is in matchmaking that is a "selling point" that I no longer have in my arsenal and it pisses me off. What if I hit it off with a younger guy?

    And yes, I had a hard time putting myself out there with my last job, its diminished returns, and how it effected my confidence, I'm definitely not feeling like a catch with this one either. So good luck with your options. I actually love blind and first dates (and job interviews) I go in there like a Lion, no false pretenses, get to know someone/something new, and be myself. They're the few times I'm all "take it or leave it." Take care and keep me informed.

  2. For what it's worth, I found my husband online and at a time when I was not in anyway looking for one, let alone a serious relationship. They might not be the most common "breed", but there are plenty of guys out there that love the type of strong willed, smart, independent, forthright, creative, wonderful woman that you are - I know, I married one of them!

    ♥ Jessica

    *PS* I've never felt beautiful/attractive in the way that society today generally judges as being so either. Sad isn't it that anyone, in any context, would see themselves like that? We're all so much more stunning than we give ourselves credit for.

  3. Thank you ladies for your comments! :) Anyone else want to weigh in? Don't be shy!! :)

  4. It's moments like this where I wish there weren't so many miles between Seattle and Toronto... or that I could get a company I freelance for to open up a position at their warehouse in Indiana. It'd mean long drives, but it'd be worth it I think... ;)

    The problem with guys who are interested in gals like you is, we're so few and so scattered geographically. :(

    1. And this is why Diamondback is such a sweetie. :)