Why is it that I can only find someone to love online? What's so wrong with me that I can't seem to "find" someone in the real world...?
Could it be that I'm too independant? Could it be that I'm intelligent? While I'm not ugly, I'm not society's idea of beauty, either (and it doesn't bother me a bit). Could it be that I'm not afraid of using my mind, forming opinions and standing by them until someone has the arguements that might prove me wrong? I enjoy listening. I'm not the most fashionable person, but I'm not wearing my 80's fashions (even if they are back in style, I disliked them then so why would I suddenly like them again? *lol*). I'm old (44 this year), and unable (well, unwilling due to my age) to have children. While I may be stuck in a nowhere career, at least I have a steady job and am very lucky in that regard. I am also trying to take advantage of the "free" education offered here at work to improve myself and my chances at better empolyment.
Men! Too afraid of an intelligent, honest, independant woman. As I'd hate to bruise their delicate egos, to hell with them. *LOL* Actually, that's not totally true, if a man's ego gets bruised by my personality he's SO not worth being around. I've been considering either e-Harmony or Lifemates...but there is one called "It's Just Lunch" that's been tempting. I think part of the problem is that at my age I should be well established in my career, or should have been married once already (or even twice). They're expecting perfection, and it's just not going to happen. Sorry to bust your bubble, fellas, but if you're not acheiving perfection you're not going to get it from me. Just trying to be realistic here.
I'll let y'all know how my possible adventures go. I'll never quite accept that I'm too old for this shit, but frankly I'm getting tired of it. Being alone, that is. And no, I do not do the "I Hate Valentine's Day" thing either, but only because it sullies the true St. Valentine. It's ugly that everyone figures that they can only prove to someone that they love them only one day out of every year, and do that by purchasing over-priced "stuff". It's almost as bad as Christmas these days.
Oh well, enough of my ranting. So, how positive do I sound now, Isapacey? *LOL*